I asked you this question before http://www.justanswer.com/mental-health/7ffvv-hi-kate-is-boundary-crossing-meet-male.html
After your answer, I acted as if nothing had happened. He looked a bit shocked and I assumed that it was because I didn't react to his illustration. Later that day, he stood next to me, his sleeve touching mine, while we were cooking.
He always sit next to me, and when he didn't, he always came next to me, to talk to me, or somebody else near me, so I thought he liked me and the illustration was only on my paper.
Not only that, he immitates all my gestures perfectly and I was especially surprised when I saw him folding his hands just like the special way I do it.
And he sometimes blushs while he talks to me.
...So, I felt that he would say something special on the next one-on-one meeting that's held every six months. And today we had that meeting.
He didn't say anything that has nothing to do with the program.
And I also happened to know that he did
the illustration on everyone's paper.
Have I been having delusions for all the six months?
If so, why?
How to get back to myself?
I still like him and kept wondering how nice it would be if he were my boyfriend. How to cope with my feeling for him?