I have been struggling with depression for 3 years now (initiated by the loss of my life partner). I was in psychotherapy for 6 months in the latter half of the year following his death. I have had many weeks and months of good mental health, but last several months I have slipped deeper into a depressive state. I just don't "care" about very much and consequently have let my housework go to hell or not bothered to pay bills on time (because it just seems so mundane and worthless). Possibly the state of my household gives me an excuse to keep friends at a distance. I am wondering if it is time to consider medication, as I have, in some extremely anxiety-ridden instances, turned to alcohol to self-medicate (which I know only exacerbates the depression).