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Just by asking the question you indicated that you are not ready to be a mom. As you said, you would probably be a good one, just because you had a good role model in your own mom, I assume.
You may have other goals to pursue or challenges to meet before you are ready, and you may wish to continue in a career that is not conducive to being a parent.
The difference in attitudes or goals between you and your boyfriend may be significant enough to cause a rift or breakup with him.
If you can continue this relationship without expectations or pressure for you to change your mind, then you can continue to let life unfold and see what changes it brings to you.
If this is a deal-breaker with him, then it will have to be that way. You should not feel obligated to become a mother unless your heart is completely in it.
The best course of action is to continue as before, being honest with your boyfriend if he asks. If he is willing stand by you no matter what then you can continue the relationship.
If he has his heart set on a family with children, then you two may have to go your separate ways.
In the meanwhile, just take one day at a time.
My prayers are with the both of you.
Elliott, MAE, LPCC, NCC, CCMHC\
You're right, I do have other goals and challenges, but perhaps I could achieve my goals while parenting, right? Being a parent is so much work and responsibility, but what if I regret not having kids when I'm older?
I'm confused. First you said that I shouldn't have kids and now you're saying I should? How do I find the right answer for me?