I finally made a huge milestone in my life. I thought about everything you said and my unhappiness with this relationship stems from me. From about age 8-14 I was teased. Not just kid teasing, hurtful to the bone teasing. I am half-white and half-black and I was called hairy monkey, hairy gorilla, and ni**er. I am now 25 and see where my unhappiness not only with myself but relationship comes from, since about age 12 I have emotionally, mentally, and physically have removed myself literally from myself. Alex my boyfriend is in the same shoes as me. He was very good looking in high school and he would not have dated me back then. But, were both unhappy with ourselves so we fit, and if we are meant to be we will be together. But I feel finally after 25 years its time to take a stand against myself and change. I wont ever be happy or get the man I trully deserve until im happy with myself.
I'm doing really good thank you. I took what you said to heart and really thought about my relationship on a deeper level and I deserve more than what I'm getting.I know relationships have their ups and downs but I have been dealing with the same issues for 4 years. I cant help someone who doesn't want to be helped and I'm ready to start a new chapter in my life.
I am so happy for you! You deserve the best and settling for less can make you unhappy. You are a very smart lady. Trust your intuition because when you find what you want you will know.