I see that you are still questioning this.
It looks like this is causing your some distress.
how are you today
here are some resources online support groups for you
I think for many crossdressers they have always tell me that they felt that they were born in the wrong body
most of my clients tell me when their were 4 or 5 they had thoughs that the oposite sex genitals would appear for them and they would be their real gender.
I think for many those thoughts are natural and they know who they are but society pushes them into conforming
If you give me the town you live in I can do a search for you and find a therapist who can help you with the anxiety that you are experiencing.
Its always been a drem of mine to have big boobs and an hourglass figure! Now that I have that what else is there?
Well now you can have another dream, living happy as a woman and figure out what is next. I understand that when we all compleate a goal we have for a long time then life feels empty. You will find your next step I am pretty sure that you will have another goals. I have a feeling forming relationships and relationships with others who are supportive will help. Also figuring out what it means to you to be a woman leave like woman. I guess you have to find out what is next for you. Maybe educating others and helping transgendered youth to understand themselves will be one goal.
Find your own happiness even with your relatives or friends do not accept you for you you are, learning how to love yourself.