Hello, No I have never had any neurological testing. I do not have insurance. Yes I've always been anxious and clenched, just sometimes it's worse than others. I've even had TMJ surgery because I've worn down all the cartilege in my jaw joints. That was in 2000. In 2005 my aunt committed suicide. She was like a mother to me, she had no children of her own. I was not physically abused, aside from regular spankings by my mother and stepfather, but the verbal abuse was off the charts. I was never good enough, even though I was perfect. I was accused and blamed for everything, even when it wasn't close to true. My stepfather was an alcoholic and beat my mom to a pulp a couple of times, but now in their retirement they don't drink, they go to church regularly, and pass judgement on me and everyone around them that isn't as great as they think they are. My PCP prescribed anti-depressants to me in 1998. I have not gone off, he says I nevern can, my problem is genetic. Currently I take 30 mg of Cymbalta daily. I haven't seen a mental health Expert in a few years. Lately I have been very suicidal. The only reason I don't check out is that I have two teenage boys. The idea of checking out seems so peaceful. I've never been happy in my life. The only episodes of happiness I have are when I drink alcohol. I drink nightly, but it has never gotten out of hand so much to get me in trouble. The therapists I've seen all seemed like idiots. I was married for 15 years. My husband understood me and is still a great friend. But he irritates me, I think hes a loser and he smokes pot all the time and I never wanted that around my kids. I always said if he didn't quit by the time the kids were teenagers, I was leaving. And I did. No one else in my family understands me. I am the black sheep. I'm too liberal for their taste and small-mindedness, therefore I must need psychological help.