I understand that I may have depression issues that I need to deal with but I don't understand why it is rolling over into my marriage. At times I know I am making her feel bad because I say things that are more fear than fact and those make her feel like I don't trust her. I do trust her and it is more like I don't trust everyone else. Does that make sense?
I am very close to my parents and my childhood was pretty good. Because I have depression I have always wondered if that amplified the fear when things feel off that I am going to loose my family?
My problem is I am a fixer I my life and with my wife. We had a huge argument and I don't feel right now because of how she is acting and saying that I can fix this one and it has cost me everything I love. I can't seem to get anything right or know what too say to make it right. She says she needs time and normal. Unfortunately that is not ny strong suit. "Patience". It is making me hurt to know we are not fine or truly know how this is going to turn out.