Hello, I'm Amani and I'm 21 years old. I'm in relationship for a while now. My heart it keep beating because of fear. I'm fear that the past and the present are in the same stories. I mean I might losing my man. Every time I try to fall in love and I give my very best, XXXXX XXXXX end every man leaves me without any reason. I feel all these years I'm stuck in the same situation. Now, I can't feel the love the way I used to. Even I can't say I love you to my boyfriend. I feel heartless. Help me, I don't want to be stuck in the same situation again. I'm lack of dicipline, lazy and afraid to face the reality such as working, love and my own life. It hard for me to make a decision I don't why but there is something blocking my choices. I can't make any plans at all. I want to be the girl I used to, a girl doesn't afraid of anything and accomplished. why I'm hard time to make any changes and thinking my past?