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I'm 23 in graduate school. I have a tendency to be too attached to people and want a lot of attention. In my past, my father (pastor, became physically abusive to my oldest half-sister who was not his own because my mother got pregnant by her at the time fiance before she married him, gambler, alcoholic, and porn-aholic probably due to the fact that his father looked at porn too) left when I was 8 years old and has hardly talked to my family since. I am the youngest of 5 children and my mom raised us on her own (he moved away and got remarried). She went back to school and got a teaching degree, but went into depression and almost killed herself. She took out her anger on us and sometimes got slightly physical and definitely emotionally abusive with her word (she became an alcoholic). Fast forward and everything is a lot better. My mom still drinks but we have a good relationship now and she has gotten a lot mentally better due to therapists and anxiety medication. Rewind, girls were always very mean to me growing up and picked on me (I hung out with the guys and got best looking in high school, etc.) so I always felt like I wasn't good enough for friends. I also dated a guy for 5 years that was extremely emotionally abusive. I finally broke up with him recently and got in a stable relationship with my current boyfriend. However, I am frequently anxious and worried about our future and always want to talk to him, always want to know what he's doing, always afraid that he's not being faithful or telling me the truth, and I am pretty jealous about some things. I'm constantly thinking about him. I'm wondering if maybe I need therapy? I don't know if something is wrong with me or if these are normal worries (we had a rough first year together, what with ex's and trust issues, but now everything is good) from our past. I've seen a college counselor who was in training, but I don't feel as though she helped much. Do you think I should go to a paid professional? How do you feel about anxiety medication? I don't feel like it's something I'd be interested in because stuff like that scares me. But do you think there may be something wrong? I find myself very frequently down in the dumps and anxious. Thanks for any advice.