My question is about tablets I have been taking for depression and anxiety
, but I want to put you in the picture about my recent health. I recently had a d & v episode (3 weeks ago) for a few hours due to a winter bug I guess, but couldn't eat for a few days without feeling very sick, and only sipped at water and lemonade which I could tolerate. During this time I was not having any of my daily tablets and seemed not to suffer any withdrawal symptoms then. The d&v etc. cleared up but has left me physically weaker (I am 22 stone and unfit so tend to get very tired very easily anyway), now at the end of the day I still get physically weak and a physically drained dropping feeling in my limbs. (After the d&v I got vertigo from an inner ear infection, so my GP told me over the phone, and the dizziness
, nausea and dreadful tiredness prolonged my general weakness, but that too seems to have gone. My GP was happy I hasn't had a stroke
As I had not had my citalopram and reboxetine tablets for a few days I decided to use the opportunity to get off them. I have been on them for 13 years and 9 years respectively and my depression had receded quite a bit. I would say my anxiety is only a little better. But I wanted to stop them due to the side effects especially from the citalopram, which I understand is a very bad tablet to be on now e.g. making one's mental health worse in the long run.
After the first few days after my d&v I became much more tearful, crying, angry, anxious and stressed and after a few more days went back on the reboxetine. This helped but I still have times, espcially in the evening when I am extremely tired, of great anxiety, anger and upset. Yesterday this happened in the day and I wanted to escape from being inside, I screamed a lot, and tried to push objects away from me (we live in a very untidy and cluttered house), opened windows, and needed fresh air despite the very cold weather. I felt out of control and mad.
I have a supply of diazapam for when I need them, which has been farily rarely until these past few weeks. The only way I have been able to calm down now in the evenings and certainly yesterday is to have 6g of diazapam. Yesterday I needed 12g.
Having been off the citalopram for 3 or 4 weeks now (I cannot remember) should I perservere without them and cope with these withdrawal symptoms as they die down, or have some? I was on 40mg (40g?? - I can't remember if they're in mg or g) a day e.g. 20mg every other day and see if I can cope.
I cannot stay as I am - I sometimes feel as if I am going mad now and cannot control my emotions at all now at times, and would only stay off the citalopram if I knew my emotions were going to gradually calm down as the withdrawal process takes its course.
I feel reluctant to go back on them due to what I have already gone through over the past few weeks and don't want that to have been a waste of withdrawal. I am desparate to not take them due to the bad effects they have on the body and long term mental haelth, and the erectile dysfunction they contribute to.
I have no confidence in asking my GPs as they just look gormless when I see them and cannot seem to work out what to do with my mental health issues.
I also take tablets for high blood pressure; hypothyroidism; diabetes and high chlorestarol; and insulin.