I'm 31 year old male. I'm about 5'6, weight around 132 pounds. Lately, I've been depressed. Mainly due to my place in the world; I haven't been able to establish myself in a profession. So much time has gone by, and I feel that I have waisted so much due to poor choices that I've made. Although I'm working towards my degree in the healthcare, it just sometimes seems hard to achieve, but I'm still fighthing because I do not want to give up. I live with my parents and the fact that they see me everyday in the house makes me depressed; sometimes, it's hard to look them at their eyes. Right now, I've been just going to school, I don't have a job. Of course, I'm struggling financially, and it really hurts because I see others, that are around my age, doing good...and I'm just still going to school, with barely any money. I'm blessed that I look really young. My typical day, I wake depressed, it's just hard to let go of the past...it's just a cloud over my head that doesn't go away, as the day progresses, I tend to feel better, but my low self esteem have taken a toll on me. I'm not happy about the person I've become. I struggle when it comes to make big desicions; I'm somewhat perfectionist. I want to be a strong man; mentally and physically, I just want to be happy with myself. I hold these thoughts to myself because it's hard to share these feelings, everybody thinks I'm fine, but the reality is that there is this pain inside me that devours me. I have a few good friends, but I just feel that I better hold these thoughts to myself because if if I do tell, I might be seen as weak, plus I don't want anyone to know these stuff. There's so many stuff to tell, but I guess I should see a mental professional. I just hope I find peace within myself and live a great life.