I lost my husband very suddenly a year ago this month~ after an autopsy was done~ which I also received the final report this month~he had a lot wrong with his heart and also cancer showed in his pelvic and bladder area~yet three months previous his tests were all good~I was devastated~ as he died basically right in front of me saying he felt dizzy~after rescueing my cat from water in our basement~I knew that I could not keep up our huge Victorian home alone~ it was on 6 acres~ we loved it and we had money~I had only one child ~ a son from a previous marriage and felt it sensible to move near him~I am not sorry I did~ as he helps me so much and I live in a gorgeous Condo~ I had to live with him for 6 weeks however while waiting for my condo to be ready~ and it was terrible there~his wife is Japanese and she said many cruel things to me and obviously did not want me there~it was in a different Province as well~ anyway I also faced high pressure eye problems and have been to Specialists and I am on eye drops now~ thankfully no damage is done yet to my optic nerves~ so any outings I have are for eye care thus far~ I do not drive yet~ as I am only used to Country driving and not City~I feel so lonely~ my son visits when he can and does all my errands and shopping~ his three young boys annoy me~this makes me feel guilty~ anyway a Professional Doctor put me on medication~I checked myself into a hospital in my former Province~ as I was exhausted from stress and lack of sleep~she transferred the prescription to my new province for a while yet~it is co Quietiapine and pms clonazepam and mylan-zopiclone~ at bedtime I take two 25 mg quietiapine along with the zopiclone and a clonazepam 1 mg~I fall asleep and seem to have pleasant dreams and sleep well~ I feel I need this now or I would not sleep at all~I have OCD ways I know~ anyway my family history has a lot of Bipolar ~ so these Doctors always say for me to NOT take an anti~ depressant~ as I might go too high~ right now I wish I would~some days I feel great and can function well~I notice since Easter is approaching and it is the Anniversary of the death I am feeling very tired ~I keep pushing myself anyway and keep my Condo spotless and make myself meals~the Doctor has me on one quietiapine in the morning and 1 and 1 half clonazepam and at noon only 1 and 1 half of the latter~plus a B12 pill~I did have a lot of anxiety and still do at times~in which case she says to take a half of the quietiapine twice a day~only if needed~I tend not to take this very often~I realize I have to find a Doctor here~ after my eyes get settled~ can you explain why some days I feel so drained and others not~ I maybe tend to stay in bed too long ~ as it passes the time in the so long days~I don't feel like socializing ~ I am 68 years old and it is hard to make friends at this age in a strange City~I had hired women to help me unpack and one stole from me~ so I had a bad beginning here ~ yet still feel I made the right decision~ I did so much so fast~ selling my home and moving within six months~I felt stronger back then than now~ I always enjoyed a drink of wine or whatever~ but apparently I should not on these pills???~is it the Holiday approaching that makes me feel worse right now or the year mark~I hate feeling so drained~ I would appreciate any advice you can give me~
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Thanks Kate~ My Doctor said a thimble full of Wine~ so I guess I knew already ~yet I wanted a second opinion~at supper time I have had no quietiavine since the Morning~ 25 mg~ 1 tablet~ does this medication help OCD in your opinion~I get scared when I read on the Internet how it is used to treat severe mental disorders ~also Bipolar~ which I was told I do not have~of course now there is Bipolar 2~ my Niece has this~as I said from reading up on the many Disorders for ages I seem to be more OCD~everything has to be Perfect~ plus I tend to annoy people by trying always to get things RIGHT~:-) I guess I wonder if fatigue also is caused from my grief~ I now live far from my famaliar surroundings and have only my son for a friend thus far and a helper~his wife turned out to be so jealous and does not bother with me and I get very lonely~I have a Persian cat~ which is suggested for company~I just miss my former home and husband so much~I shall try the site you suggested~I think Holidays are hard too for grief~like Easter coming up~ I just was concerned when I was feeling so drained yesterday~
I wonder what you feel about marijuana~it is legal here for medical reasons~ I found it helped me when I was living in my former home~my Doctor had no use for it at all and felt it would cause harm over time~I was getting it illegally back then of course~before my husband died~then I stopped~I do not think it is a good idea to take with the medication I am now on~ a person here made me a batch of brownies~ but I am afraid to mix the two~last question ~would Melotonin go with what I am taking now~ I guess I would not really need it~once in a while I wake up and can't get back to sleep~hopefully my sleep combo is still working or I may get immune to it??? I guess also I wonder what the Specialist meant~ just this last one ~I had four during my lifetime and each one said I was a Perfectionist~only that~this one said a grey area~ does she mean she does not know~ this time it was much different~ as I was also dealing with grief~ plus I was not sleeping~Thanks so much~Martha~
I agree~ I do not have a Doctor here yet~as I have been running about my eyes thus far~ it is hard for me to know if this is working that well~ as compared to marijuana it is not~ but I sometimes do not know what is a Disorder or just Grief~ if you get my meaning~the sleep one is really good and I am thus happy with that part~are you a Psychiartrist~as that is who I requested~what did she mean about a grey area~ as an example~
You mention my Bipolar~ as I said three Psychiartrists said I am NOT Bipolar~this last one said a grey area~ when I asked if I had a Mental Disorder~ but I was concerned when I saw quietiavine used for Bipolar~if I do not have that~I know that I have to find a Doctor here and yet Psychiatrists are hard to get an appt. with~I prefer them over a GP when dealing with one's brain~I saw my family members suffer too long using the advice of a GP~ Lithium is the prescribed medication that is best for Bipolar~ as an example~ my mother suffered for years not on the right medication from GP's~plus this last Doctor said that she did not want to prescribe an anti- depressant~ with a bipolar background~ not that I had it~ I could perhaps go to high~ right now I wish I could~:-)