On Monday, February 18th, my beloved cat named Ella of 3 years and 6 months was euthanized by her vet. We had rescued her when she was under 6 weeks old. She was abandoned by her mother or circumstances at a very early age and was mauled by a dog before we got her.
We had always noticed that she was scared and insecure and would bite or hiss out of fear. We gave her a lot of love and then she became normal but she always was no-touchy-feely cat. She would purr and give and ask for love as she pleased. Of course, we were sensitive to her personality and continued to love her for who she was. She was scared of guests or strangers. Sometimes, she would hide or hiss. If a cat would come by the front yard or backyard, she would howl and growl from inside the house and that was it.
About 6-8 months ago, our neighbors got two outdoor cats. I believe that her anxiety
level increased. We were putting the food out for neighbor’s cat because it seemed like that the neighbors were not feeding them properly and the cats were asking for food. Ella would sometime be normal or sometime be upset.
Last month or so, Ella viciously attacked my daughter (23 years old) who was the one who had brought Ella home. The attack was severe as in bites and scratches. We took Ella to the vet and got her evaluated for rabies and vet did
some other tests. Everything was normal and life moved on.
On Sunday, March 17th 2013, I was playing with Ella and she was happy and purring when suddenly the outdoor cats started fighting outside our front door. Ella ran to the door but door was closed so she could not fight them but turned around and I became the target of her “redirected aggression”. She attacked me and bit me and scratched me. I had to lock myself in the bedroom. I finally came out but she was still aggressive so I somehow lured her into a room and locked her. We kept her confined overnight so she could calm down but when we let her out in the morning, she attacked me again. My daughter and I locked us in a bedroom and Animal Control had to come in and trap her in a crate.
Then we took her to the vet. This vet has been seeing her since she was a baby and is completely aware of her health and personality. He said that the only option is to humanly euthanize her because she is not suitable for adoption, declawing will not help, and she is dangerous and unpredictable. She cannot be let loose in the wild because that would be cruel to her since she does not know how to hunt and has always been an indoor cat. She would either be killed by a big animal or a car might hit her. We were not left with a choice. Hence, she was euthanized and I was there with her in her final moments.
This has been devastating. I miss her so much. She was part of my family, part of who I am. I am looking for some comfort. I am a person of faith and accept the circumstances as will of God. Emotionally, I am traumatized, sad
, and very disturbed. I had a very special bond with Ella. I see her everywhere. When I close my eyes, I see her face. I have been weeping non-stop. I will be attending a pet-loss-grieving meeting of a support group in two weeks or so. I will be getting her ashes and intend to bury them.
I just thought that I will write to you because it helps to share. Please help me cope with this.