Thank you. That was very helpful. He knows about my past and has been patient with me for a while, but I think his patience is wearing thin - he has said so himself. He is very kind to me, open and honest, and has never been abusive, but when we get into arguments as a result of my insecurities, he gets so angry and frustrated with me now that he raises his voice and says things that really upset me and hurt my feelings. The other day during one of these arguments, he said that I have used up all his patience and that we will not last if this continues. And this morning after we got into another argument he said that he is bugged by my "overreacting, negativity, drama queen attitude, and whining." I don't blame him at all for feeling this way. It just hurts to hear that because I don't want to come off as that type of person, nor do I want him to think these things about me. I want things to be how they were at the beginning of the relationship when I was carefree and felt like I had nothing to lose because I was not emotionally invested. He has even said, which hurts like hell, that he misses how I was in the beginning of the relationship.I am afraid that he has started to form a negative opinion of me. I just feel like a mess of doubt and negative emotions. Now that I have put everything I have into this relationship, I am just afraid of it going up in smoke.
Thank you so much for your help.