Hello, I'd like to help you with your question.
It sounds like this relationship was helping you get your needs met before you found out what your partner was doing. When two people get together, they often bring their unmet needs and unresolved issues into the new relationship. And when you can get these needs met, the relationship feels great. But sometimes, as in the case of your partner, it sounds like he is unable to cope with getting his needs met in a normal relationship. He may have only had examples of bad relationships in his past so he does not know how to stay in a monogamous relationship and deal with what he feels.
No relationship, no matter the type, is exactly the same. So if you felt you had your needs met by this type of relationship, then it most likely is a matter of you finding the right person to be with who does not have the same issues as your current partner.
Working through a loss such as a deep and meaningful relationship is a matter of letting yourself experience all the emotions that come up as a result. You may feel sad
, angry or lonely. Learning more about the grieving process can help. Here are some resources to help:
Remember to be good to yourself and allow for good days and bad. You will work through this and find happiness with someone who can make you happy.
I hope this has helped you,