I don't mind helping at all. Thank you for the kind words as well.
You have the classic symptoms of Borderline Personality Disorder. Let me show you the "official" psychiatric criteria from the DSM-IV manual. You will see what I mean.
BPD - DSM-IV
Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment.
A pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterised by
alternation between extremes of idealization and devaluation.
Identity disturbance - markedly and persistently unstable self-image or sense
Impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging, e.g.
spending, sex, substance abuse, reckless driving or binge-eating.
Recurrent suicidal behaviour, gestures, or threats, or self-mutilating
Affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood, e.g. intense episodic
dysphoria, irritability or anxiety, which usually lasts for between a few hours
and several days.
Chronic feelings of emptiness
Inappropriate, intense anger, or difficulty controlling anger, e.g. frequent
displays of temper, constant anger or recurrent physical fights.
Transient, stress-related paranoid ideation or severe dissociative symptoms.
with six or more of the above
traits and symptoms may be diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder.
However, the traits must be long-standing (pervasive), and there must be no
better explanation for them, e.g. physical illness, a different mental illness
or substance misuse.