Hello, I'd like to help you with your question.
You are not describing any thoughts or behavior that shows you to be a pedophile. A pedophile is someone that is usually not concerned that he/she is attracted to children. They may actually feel their thoughts and behaviors are normal and that sexual intimacy with children is also natural.
Thinking that a boy you saw is cute or pretty is harmless. You may have had feelings like this because either the boy was cute, or seeing him reminded you of something in your past.
People almost never become molesters without having been molested themselves. A person really doesn't develop sexual feelings towards children unless somewhere in their childhood someone made that behavior acceptable to them either through direct molestation or exposure to it. So just becoming a pedophile out of the blue is almost non existent. There would have to be some trigger in your past to have that happen.
If you feel these thoughts are bothering you to the point you are having trouble functioning, you may want to consider getting an evaluation for OCD- Obsessive Compulsive disorder. What can happen with OCD is you get an "unacceptable" thought in your mind and you obsess over it which creates anxiety
in you. It becomes an obsession to try to get rid of this thought only to have it come back to you again and again, making you anxious and upset.
If you feel therapy will help talk with your doctor about a referral. Or you can search on line for a therapist through this site:
I hope this has helped you,
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