I have never had problems with mental illness before. The symptoms started right after my son was born 4 months ago. Right now my fiance and I live in her parents basement while we try to save money for a down payment for a house. I feel that her mother judges me every second we are here. I work full time as a welders apprentice and work 11 hour days. With a shift of 11 on 3 off. My fiance and I have been fighting a lot more as well. I feel that I am not able to fully support my fiance and son when i can not even provide a roof over our heads without help from her parents. I am stressed out all the time when I get home because I feel that my fiance and I do not spend enough time together. She is a fully independent woman and that's what I love most about her. Kate what is going on with me when we first got together i was so happy and so in love and now nothing. Ever since I finished college baseball and moved in to her parents place I have changed
I have tried talking with my fiance but she is taking her mothers side. I have talked to her about the dreams but she is a realist and does not like to see those dreams. As for the baseball thing i blew my elbow out last year and cannot play anymore because it has not healed properly. My fiance also says we cannot rely on her parents to watch our son as we go out. It frustrates me. She does not want to leave our sons side and it feels she would do anything for him but not for me. I have no friends here because i have recently moved to a new town and it is tough meeting people. Kate I have tried getting out with her and it does not work. I feel that if i ask her to do stuff it will cause a fight.
We also believe that this could stem from issues i had with my dad. he was always working and busy with work that he never came to any of my sporting events and know i feel that i will turn into my dad and neglect my son and things that are important to him. i always was getting made at him for not coming to my baseball games. i had to fight with him to come to the baseball championships that were held in our town. it is frustarting to me
thats wasnt really helpful she isnt controlling at all she
I know that but i wanted to get help here first to see if it was worth it going to a counselor. I feel that all fights are my fault because I am bringing up me feelings. To be honest with you i wear my emotions on my sleeve and everyone knows when im not happy. It sucks i have tried to control it but has never worked for me. I feel trapped also because i am at her parents place and feel like i need to be the perfect son in law. I get so angry when this happens because no body is perfect and my mother in law seems to think that she is and that nothing i says matters