Thank you for the additional information.
It sounds more like you were desperate to be loved by someone rather than sexually abused. If you enjoyed the love scenes on T.V. and tried to get others' attention by showing your penis, then it could be that you wanted to connect to others so you could get the attention and love you were not getting at home. Being attracted to love scenes may have meant that you were deprived of love and seeing it attracted your attention because it was what you needed.
Being insecure also can be as a result of a lack of love as a child. Children who are neglected often feel there is something wrong with them because they did
not get love or attention. So they feel it must have been because of who they are.
Because your parents did not pay much attention to you, it is unlikely they abused you sexually. Most perpetrators will pay too much attention to a child rather than ignore them. They spend time "grooming" the child and may even buy them gifts. A child may be told that they are loved, but it holds a different meaning than the love a child needs and deserves.
It may help you to consider talking to a therapist just to be sure. A therapist can help you explore your past and use your current symptoms to determine if there is any merit to possible abuse. To find a therapist, talk to your doctor for a referral. Or search on line at http://therapists.psychologytoday.com/rms/prof_search.php.
I hope this has helped you,
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