I will paste the content of your last post here and also answer the one here, on this page.
i have been worrying since last night that i somehow screwed something up at work, i only had 2 pts by the end but ti was a hectic night. between that heparin drip we sent up - i keep worrying did we set it wrong? and then at the end of the night i had a pt who was admitted for an accidental overdose of insulin. he forgot and re injected. so they wanted to just watch him over night. he had asked when i was rechecking his glucose why its so low? i said b/c with the 2nd dose it brought it very low and it peaks but it takes over 6 hr to wear off. in the am he was moved to another part of the er and the nurses aide dropped his cell phone and he said just ditched him there (he seemed weird anyways though.. he takes 2 mg of xanax plus demerol for headaches which i refused to give out and told the drs so. i don't dispense demerol. these people are f**king crazy. i didn't even get demerol for labor - although they offered with kate not andrew) and he said that the hosp shouldn't think his insurance should pay or him to not to have a bed and i threw it in hsi face that he took an overdose. i said i didnt i had just tried to ans his question. i had him call me several times ina few minutes then and i had terri coem with me to be a witness, but. im afraid he made a complaint which pisses me off since everything was fine all night. i did recheck his fingerstick it was ok so he wasnt hypo glycemic.
i dont know. i keep tellign ym self its a false feeling. esp since its going to be 2 yrs soon for the incident that i started to speak to you about.. feb 11 is the date.. and i had that thing happe just like my old job - evaluated as soon as i get back. and a mediocre one at that just like the other place. i was thinking if i m workign so hard and its mediocre.. i mean imagine if i didnt really bust my ass.
and if thats the case.. well in a way why bother. its supid. its like me trying to convince soemone to like me which def doesnt work. i do honestly believe people dont change their opinions about you. i dont feel like staying to prove to peter ima good nurse. he has his favorites for whatever reason why i dont know.
You have taken a lot of hits over the past few years in terms of work and your self esteem. Who would not be hurt and filled with self doubt over what happened? Few to none. Here, at this workplace, anything that reminds you of what happened in your last job is not going to be easy. And this patient that you mention, and all the recent circumstances...well, it kind of fits in with that past and the feelings that you had.
Now, it is normal to feel saddened and anxious by the situation here. But this is different, and just because it may feel or seem similar, it is not. You did what you were to do and 99.9% of the time those feelings that haunt you are just echos of the past...not accurate predictors of what might happen. I have little doubt that you did your job well and the patient, both the blood thinner and the insulin situation were totally fine.
I heard that you all may take a pounding as far as the snow. I hope the forecast is wrong. If there is anything that NY needs it is not another crisis and you certainly do not need one. All that you have been through...well, it is enough. I am also hopeful that the recent power outages and problem may have shown the weaknesses in the delivery system of wires and cables and so on, and that the snow does not cause any issues as the big one were revealed by the previous hurricane.
Is there a way that you both could create an emergency fund for the future or even now, borrow some emergency cash? I feel awful that you could end up in a shelter. It makes no sense to see you stuck like that, in some who knows what shelter.
I can clearly tell that you are really ticked off at dr b. I know that he was not very wise with how he acted toward you, and you could stay angry at him. But I do want to say that I have tried to pay attention to what you have told me about the people at your workplace. They are, many of them, very dysfunctional. Many are unappreciative and rude. Many can be nasty and condescending. Most are completely about themselves. But I have noticed that some, despite flaws genuinely like you. I know dr b was rude and should not have said anything about how loud you were. He acted parental and that is uncalled for. But, he made a mistake. Tell him how you feel about it and if he is your friend, which I know he is, he will come to his senses. He can't fix what he does not know. It is your choice of course, but that seems to me to be a good course of action.
When things are down and, like they are now at work, it is easy to feel drawn to tmm2. He is flattering and kind to you and that has to be powerful stuff. But don't settle for what he offers when what you really want is to feel loved and cared about. I mean this sincerely. He offers a cheap version of what you desire, nothing more.
Men are shallow. And should they even be in a place where women crawl around on poles. That is their choice, both the men and the women. I feel sorry for them both and knew, in counseling, a number of the women and the men who frequented these places. None were happy and all the laughter, just masks for a lot of real pain.
Ah, give me some credit Liz. I know what sol stand for...But Rob. Really, nothing for v day? I am sorry. You both make way over 100k combined and there is no way he could have nothing. That is an excuse. I find it distressing that this is how he is.
Mistress? Really? Okay, what is he smoking? A women responds in sex with how she is made to feel about herself. If there is nothing coming in, in terms of kindness and recognition then there is nothing in return. It is simple math. An engineer should find that easy to grasp. Hopefully he figures this out.
Some boys are tanks, even as infants. I have seen it. He may be tough and strong and this is snot just boys of course. I had a girl who was this way too. But society does recognize boys far more easily than girls in this way and it is unfair.
Little and cute, yup any child under 5 usually is. And 1.5-3 crew is really cute. But as they get older they do work for you and that helps with the lost cuteness. Steven