Hello, I am Rafael. Thanks for asking your question - I'm here to support you. (Information posted here is not private or confidential but public).
I am sorry to know about your situation, which seems very frustrating and painful for you and your wife.
Could you please tell me for how long you have been married and how long ago did this issue start?
and started in 2000
Are you aware of what led to this radical and unhealthy change in your romantic and sexual life 10 years ago, after 8 years of a good marital life?
i am at a point know were if the topic is not spoken about during intercourse .... i cannot achieve no saftisfaction and actually become disaroused
i guess it could be the fact that i thought my spouse is haveing affairs
haven't you looked for professional psychological support during the past years regardless of the worsening of this problem?
its like i am leading a dual life - which is frystrateing me and causeing me to have suicidal thoughts
nope but i think i do know badly need help
Did you ever confirm such fear - suspicion?
as i am very successful in my working life but this side of my life is going downhill and fast
yes kind of but never could 1--%
Then please, do not delay getting necessary professional psychotherapeutic support, once this situation requires it, not only because of your marital health and well-being, but because of our mood stability and life integrity.
You mean you never confronted your wife about it nor get to clarified what happened and worked on recovering from it?
i have many a time but answers that never satisfied me were given and honestly
its buildt up over the years and know i am tired
anyways ..... thank you for your help
You're very welcome. I see, then you have been developing increasing distance between you, lacking necessary openness, honesty and mutual trust, this could easily explain why this disorder developed
i am at a point were i am liveing alone in my own home with everyone around me
will seek help
You're welcome. Please look for professional psychotherapeutic support to work on this issue, thus to improve coping, mood and assertiveness to take better care of yourself and life, rehabilitating from this distortion undermining you personal and life and marriage.
You're welcome. Thank you for your trust. Take gentle care and consistent action.