Hi! You know, to give you the best answer, I think I should ask you a few questions first that will help define the problem and the situation.
Your question is very evocative that there is so much behind the simple few words you write. How long have you been using alcohol?
And how long have you been attending AA meetings? How often are you attending? Is it helping?
What other things have you tried in the past? Did they work and for how long?
Do you think you need in-patient detox and rehab? Do you have insurance and the financial resources for this?
Now for some general questions: Was there trauma or abuse in your childhood? What about alcohol or dysfunction in your family when you were growing up?
Are you interested in medications to help? Or self help techniques? Or psychotherapy?
Are you getting any therapy treatment right now? If so, what type? How is it going?
If not, when was the last treatment? What type of treatment was it? Was it helpful?
Any extra information that will help, feel free to share.
I'm going to be going to be logging off for the night soon, so if I can't answer before that, would later today be okay for me to respond? Dr. Mark
Sure get back to me at yr earliest convenience.
I have been drinking at various levels for 20 years now.
AA was helpful for a couple of years but ive stopped going.
I have tried the usual medications but they are basically sedatives.
No trauma or abuse in childhood.
Alcohol for me is a convenient cheap drug that guarantees a blackout at home so i can have a few nights a week not dealing with loneliness.
I dont have the financial resources to attend residential rehab.
I no longer go to bars..im a closet drinker 4 times a week.
I do see yr point. However, it is difficult to sit through endless stories of other peoples problems. It can have the reverse effect. Its not inspiring anymore like it was when I was new in the program.
I really didnt think id make it this far in life to have nothing fufilling to transpire.
Life is boring. Loads of TIME. Others around me just go with the boredom. Perhaps this is as good as it gets.