Thank you for your answer. I think I should have emphasized that though I am asking for help and want improvements, it's mostly because I feel the need to do it. I'd rather just stay in my room and do nothing and just be with myself, but.. I can't afford such luxury. I am a black and white person, so I want to ask if I feel so unhappy and that is partly because of my course, do you think I should be brave and reapply for another course or even take something like a gap year? I know it is too little information, but do you think it is something a person like me ought to do?