Hello, I'd like to help you with your question.
It sounds like you could be depressed. You mentioned that you have seen a therapist for a few sessions so at some point, you should have had an evaluation to determine what your diagnosis is. If you did
not or the therapist did not tell you what their impressions were, you may want to consider seeing another therapist. An evaluation would investigate all of your symptoms and determine what diagnosis they might fit, including depression. Finding a therapist that you feel can help you sometimes takes a few tries (just like finding a doctor can). But another perspective can help. And you may have a better and more positive experience.
You may also want to try learning more about depression to see if your symptoms fit what you are feeling. Sometimes you may have symptoms that you don't realize you have. Seeing what symptoms indicate depression may help you pinpoint what you are experiencing.
Here is a resource to help you get started:
You also mentioned that you have Meniere’s disease which could also impact how you are feeling, along with the stress
of paying alimony and keeping up with your bills. With no outlet for your stress, you may be reacting by becoming depressed.
If you find that you have depression, there are medications that can help. Also, along with therapy, self help is a good option to helping you feel better. I'm not sure how much support you have right now, but online support groups can help you feel less alone and provide a way for you to talk about your experiences and feel better. Here are more resources to help you:
I hope this has helped you,