I have never been abused in the past or hurt. I think the problem is that I latched onto this celebrity because of a lack of things in my life. I don't work full time so I have a lot of free time to follow celebrity news and stuff, and following this person made me a fan cuz they seemed nice and stuff.
I did deal with my feelings concerning the article. The article mocked celebrities who had breast implants, saying they look distorted or whatnot, and after doing research, I learned that women have breasts in all different sizes and shapes, and the space between them differs tremendously regardless of whether they have implants or not. So I came to the conclusion that there was nothing wrong with the celebrity I follow. Did I not do a good enough job convincing myself of that?
I used the alcohol and medication to try and sleep, not because I was upset about the celebrity. Isn't there a difference?
So with that in mind, do you think my current anxiety is from the original situation or lack of sleep? I haven't slept in 6 days (since this all started) and for two of those days, I was pacing around my house non stop from anxiety, but that was AFTER I resolved the issue of the celebrity for myself, and in my mind, the constant pacing was from my inability to fall asleep and from being sensitive and agitated about that.
Do you think that's the case? It seems to me that the symptoms of a general anxiety disorder and insomnia/sleep deprivation are very similar, thus making it hard to tell which is really at play.
What do you think it means if the panic/anxiety comes and goes? For the two days after I mixed alcohol and the prescription medicine, I was pacing and anxious virtually non stop. Since Friday, it's come and gone, and while there have been times I've felt anxious, its not nearly as it was those two days, and when it goes away, I feel completely fine. Of course, some of that is from taking homeopathic medicines when I feel an attack starting, but I haven't done that for every attack. There are attacks where I let it wash over me and then it goes away for awhile.
My doctor prescribed Xanax. I used it on Friday, as previously mentioned, and it worked. I was out pretty quick. The reason I didn't sleep Saturday or Sunday is because I didn't use the medicine on those days. I was afraid it would lose its effectiveness or I would become dependent.
Does this change any of your previous answers?
Do you believe that this will resolve itself if I can finally get back on track with my sleeping patterns? If it doesn't then I either need professional help or another medicine. Would you be wiling to be my "professional help"? What medicine would you recommend? I have to work, and if I take something that leaves me out cold every time I take it, I won't be able to sustain my job because, as I already said, the anxiety comes and goes throughout the day. So is there a medicine that could block the anxiety but leave me coherent enough to drive, work, etc.?
I forgot to mention that part of me wonders if, having not slept in so many days, I'm afraid of the bedroom because I don't know if I will successfully sleep or not, and this past week has shown me that I am not very good at mentally handling those times that I'm not able to sleep