Thank you for the additional information.
It sounds like you may have depression, along with social anxiety. The anxiety seems very prominent when you are with other people, indicating that it is limited to social situations. And if you are struggling socially, this can cause you to feel depressed.
It does not sound like you are experiencing anything like Bipolar
disorder which is why I asked you about your moods.
You may want to explore both anxiety and depression to see if you feel you fit the symptoms. Here is more information on both to help you get started:
By looking through all the symptoms, you can identify which ones you feel fit your experience.
One of the best ways to determine what is going on is to see a therapist for a face to face evaluation. The therapist will get an extensive history and a comprehensive list of your symptoms in order to provide you with a diagnosis. The therapist will also tell you what the best course of treatment is for you at this point.
Given your symptoms, you probably would benefit most from short term therapy and self help, to help you learn how to cope with what you feel, particularly when you are the center of attention and with a group and begin to experience anxiety. It can be unsettling to have symptoms of anxiety when you just want to feel ok. In order to cope with your symptoms, facing your fear is one of the best ways to help yourself to overcome the symptoms associated with it. Once you learn to face what you feel, you learn to no longer feel afraid. This is best done with the help of a therapist who can provide support and help explain why you feel as you do. But you can also do it on your own through self help. Here are some resources to help:
The Anxiety and Phobia Workbook by Edmund J. Bourne
Anxiety, Phobias, & Panic
: A Step-by-Step Program for Regaining Control of Your Life by Reneau Z. Peurifoy
Also, try to remember to relax. Keep in mind that you are acceptable as a person and no one is there to judge you. It can help to practice relaxation so when you feel nervous, you can train yourself to relax. Here is a link to a commonly used technique for anxiety:
Practice this until you can do it automatically. It will help you.
I hope this has helped you,
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