Hello, I'd like to help you with your question.
I understand your pain. I have also lost pets including two Cocker Spaniels in the past. It is not easy to lose a pet. Many people feel that the loss of a pet is not as significant, but in many ways, the loss is just as powerful, especially when your pet dies before you expected.
Initially, the grief can be very powerful and hard to cope with. You think of your dog all the time and maybe even think you see him or hear him. There are many reminders and each time you think of your pet, you may feel sad
or cry. As painful as this is, it is part of the mourning process. It allows you to express your pain and as you do, you are learning to cope with your loss.
One thing that can help you heal is memorializing your dog. Find a way to create a lasting memory through an on line post in pet memorial sites, a special marker for your pet, or even a small area in your home where you place all the special toys and bowls from your dog. By honoring your dog, it can allow you to do something special and in a way, you feel better taking action and expressing your loss through showing your love for your pet.
Also, be sure to talk to others about your loss. If you don't have many people to talk with or they don't understand, try writing about your loss either on line with other pet owners or in a journal.
Most of all, give yourself time. You will find that as time goes on, you remember the good times more than the loss of your dog. And do keep in mind, you gave your dog a wonderful life. He was loved and cared for and that means a lot.
I hope this has helped you,