Just feel like one by one my friends (I thought) are leaving. Husband and I are separated. During his dad's funeral, his current girlfriend ran up hugged kissed was all over him, after he asked me to sit and be with the family (38 years married). I agreed, but got chewed out when I asked them to wait to show inappropriate affection in front of my mom, daughter etc. I apologized to the woman by saying I'm sorry I said anything to you. She said I was mean, and I got an apology only after I addressed it with my husband 3 days later. It was not sincere. Yearly, we went to Jamaica and met 12 other people on a regular basis to vacation together. Husband asked me NOT to go and would not share the week. I stayed away. He asked the group not to post pictures of the group. One came out today. I asked why 7 months later it was posted. I was told she was tired of walking on eggshells around us. Either husband or good friend lied to me about posting the picture. It just brought back bad memories of how I wasn't welcomed to go with the group and how his girlfriend hurt and humiliated me after his dad's funeral. It just seems like there is no respect left among anyone especially for me. Yes I feel like a victim and feel like no one cares how I am treated anymore. I cannot get past the anger. How?
All I want to do is hurt another, not physically, but emotionally like I've been hurt.