Rafael M.T.Therapist says:1/2/13 8:38 AM
Thank you for responding and joining the chat.
1/2/13 8:40 AM
Sandra, you mean you are still in touch with these two women and using this drug?
1/2/13 8:41 AM
You need to come to terms with the fact that your life has not been easy and that you have developed depression and undergone it for so long, that adding any drug or drug addicted people into your life would not help you in your rehabilitation and healing process but undermine it even more.
1/2/13 8:45 AM
I believe you when you tell me you feel this lonely, but it does not have to be this way. You can make changes, it's hard but possible and working on it would allow you to grow, to empower yourself and experience more real meaning and fulfillment in your life as an individual, then to build healthy and worthy relationships with people. Good, mature, fulfilling relationships do not just appear, we all need to work on building them, what needs time and effort, from looking for sharing with people who seem to have same value and belief systems, life styles and compatible personalities and life goals. For anybody to find out about all these things, time and careful, patient exploration are required.
1/2/13 8:47 AM
This is why I strongly invite you to look for and commit to psychotherapy in order to truly work on these changes with the right tools and support. We all need support, even more when under tough circumstances like yours. Your first priorities right now should be about rehabilitating from depression and to end any form of drug use-abuse, what would allow you to be effective improving coping and social skills, assertiveness, to heal from past painful experiences and more.
1/2/13 8:52 AM
many people do use psychiatric drugs to numb their pain and symptoms f depression and anxiety, and doing so many times fool themselves, becoming addicted to such drugs too while fueling denial and avoidance about their reality, not truly doing anything to improve themselves nor their lives, and that's even worse than experiencing symptoms of any of these disorders, since such symptoms are not useless, they do appear as red flags, letting us know that we need to change, to identify what is destructive in our lives, so to commit to make better choices and take assertive actions, then they would go away., since the core life issues fueling them would not be there any more.
1/2/13 8:52 AM
I truly hope you do look for and commit to psychotherapy.