When I was little I can remember my grandpa touched me once, putting his hand onderneth my underware. I dont have any further knowledge of it happening again or before that. I can remember that I started masturbating at an early age, putting objects in my private areas, a friend I I have "played" with each other almost every day. It is driving me crazy as I started to have insomnia now, I pretend to be someone that I am not, I am so restless that I have to take a drive everyday on my own for at least 30min plus. It feels as if I am going to loose my mind. Do you think it happend more than once and was it mabe more severe than touching that I just cant remember? If you think so do you think it will be adviceable to go and see a psychiatrist? I am scared to death that I have waited too long and is started to have a personality disorder. I have a low self esteem, talking to myself every time I have a chance, I dont sleep and I am anxios all day long, very irratable and dont want to be around people but I also dont want to be alone. Why is it happening now? Have I lost my mind - please dont expose my identity
No nothing else is going on. I have started to dream that same touching insident and it started there, although I have to say it has always botherd me. I feel kind of different from other people around me. I always knew that it is not normal to play with yourself or private parts and certainly not normal for a 6 year old girl to stick things into herself. and I have never spoken to anyone about this after my mother said you are sick and crazy to do these type of thing to yourself. how would I know at that age to do those things if he only touched me once? is it posible that there is more to it?
I will see someone with a pleasure, is the anxiety normal? or does it sound like I have developed a personality disorder aswel? would it be best to see a psycologist or a pshychiatrist? just show us how damaging an experience like that is!