My wife cheated on me but her response is 1. she was using her dick pass because I cheated on her 8 yrs ago but not since and 2. she said I gave her permission to look for a boyfriend that we could both have fun with in a threesome. A friend of my wife told me shes been cheating on me much more behind my back, however the friend could be jelous of my wife because they used to compete in pageants and my wife won every time. So I don't know who to believe. In a panic mode I packed up my personal belongings and left while my wife was out of town both for the affair and the unexpected down turn of her mothers terminal cancer. After all is said, my wife blames me for abandoning the family and her with her dying mother than her actions. She wants a temporary trial separation. I told her I'd rather forgive, get councelling and try to salvage the marriage but she is acting cool and somewhat reluctant. I don't know what to do, go back and see if it works out of just get out now. HELP ME PLEASE! PS: I love my wife and I really believe she loves me too.