I agree with you on a lot of points, but maybe I've described my issue not so well. The problem is meeting new people, having a conversation or adding humor while talking to someone, I've always been quite good at that, but the problem is that everything that is personal, it's always kept inside, just because I know you don't share such things with everyone you know, it has to be someone you're sure he feels the same way about you. But all the people around, they feel easy talking with me about anything, anything but anything personal. They don't even think of asking me for help when I see they need it. And even if they do, they feel like they shouldn't've, and shut me out openly. That's the thing, I'm the guy everyone talks to and always expect him to amuse them, but that's it, nothing more. LIke a clown who makes everybody laugh but nobody cares about what he really feels. I'm ok with making people laugh, I love hearing laughter around me. It's just... it's like there's some circle around me people would never try to step into, so I try to drag them in there, very carefully so they wouldn't notice it, but the moment they get an inch closer to me they walk away, lazily, but still away and no chance of dragging them back in since they've started moving in the opposite direction. And the more I think about it, the less sense it makes, because I have no idea why it happens
Thank you very much for the positive rating and bonus! I appreciate it.
Relationships can be very complicated, but you are asking all the right questions to figure this out. Keep trying. You will find what you need. I hope the information we talked about helps you get there.