Seeking expert counseling is a sign of strength. A personal relationship with a caring professional is proven clinically effective.
You can only be her friend,
You cannot help her chemical imbalance. If her mood swings are still strong, and if she is suicidal, then her psychiatrist has not yet found the right combination of medication.
Now you are suffering from anxiety disorder and it is beginning to cause you to lose some of the edge that you need to be a successful student.
Most colleges have a counseling center where you can get help for your own anxiety. You need to discuss with a counselor how to change your thinking so that you do not assume responsibility for your girlfriend's bipolar condition.
This should not be a matter of trust. She has a serious mental disorder. In her manic stage she might exhibit very reckless behavior.
You cannot cure her by quitting school and going home to be near her. You must trust her parents and her psychiatrist.. You are out of the loop. You love and care about her, but you are not her medical and psychiatric salvation.
You can serve her best by being her close friend and supporter. You must, however, go on with your school career. Don't let her disorder drag you down. It won't help her. Your best help will be to be successful with what you are doing.
I wish you great success.
Elliott Sewell, LPCC, NCC, CCMHC
hey thank you for the advice, I wasnt able to tell you that her mom also has the condition... and that she wont be able to see a doctor about meds until the 19th.. her being with her mom doesnt really calm me down