I have been married to a really good man for 13 years. I have a pretty negative past. I was a victim of child sexual abuse, lived through a house fire, therapy, nightmares
, etc. I was on my own at 18 with no where to go, no money, no guidance. I recently had an inappropriate conversation with another person other than my husband. It didn't start off that way, nor did
I seek it out. This person was in my life as a teen, and I haven't seen him in over 16 years. I no longer have a mental connection to this man, though I thought I loved him way back when. he was the rebel type. Wanted to move around and wanted me to follow him. I chose not to, knowing my life would never amount to anything with this person. Im glad that never happened. I met my husband and he showed me a life I never knew possible, gave me children, love and affection. My husband saw the conversation and he is devastated and humiliated. While it really and truly means nothing to me, I got lost in a moment and went back to a time without stress
, kids, money, sick parents etc. My husband and I have a lot on our plate and we have been struggling over the past year. I believe I have been suffering from depression, and while I never got it diagnosed, I was too busy, with the kids, work, animals, managing my RA and living with his elderly parents. I need him to know that what I did was not a reflection of how I feel but a reflection of what I miss, freedom, carefree life we all had as teens. He is very angry and I don't know if he will forgive me. I have given this person my whole life and I have nothing without him. I don't know what to do.