kate I have been this way always but was raped recently I havent seen gp or reported it the isolation and fear is spiralling will I have to tell a therapist this
I am sorry that you went through something so horrible. It can be difficult to tell anyone about your experience. I have worked with women who were raped and they experienced the same difficulty. But a therapist is going to understand how you feel and they are trained to help you work through your pain. I encourage you to contact a local rape crisis center and talk to someone, even if you choose to do it anonymously. Let them help you find a therapist who can help and support you. Holding this in is only going to hurt you more and continue to make you feel worse with the phobia.
kate I can handle the rape thing am big enough and ugly enough to realise it happens to people like me so why do i feel so awful
It is never a good idea for anyone to handle something so traumatizing on their own. Holding that in is going to have repercussions, especially if you are already struggling with a phobia. That is most likely why you are feeling so awful. Rape involves being touched and violated in the worst possible way. That is going to cause your phobia to get worse without treatment.
kate im ok will think it over im rubbish at talking tthanks
If you feel you cannot see a therapist face to face, consider on line therapy. That can give you a start and get you used to talking to someone about what you feel, without having to deal with facing them.
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