Thank you for writing in here.
As you are aware, you may have signs of obsession and paranoid about yourself.
You may have Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD - anxiety
I suspect that you may have OCD based on your repot.
It's common for people with OCD to fixate on things or topics. In your case, you are anxious about others' view of yourself and your penis size excessively.
I would advise you to see your primary care doctor to discuss your obsessions. Your doctor may refer you to a psychiatrist for medication consultation and a psychologist for psychotherapy (for OCD management).
Also, relaxation and Stress
reduction techniques such as yoga, meditation
, Acupuncture, Nutrition and Guided imagery may help you to reduce anxiety symptoms like obsessions and restlessness.
If your are open to psychotherapy, I would advise you to work with a psychologist WEEKLY for 3- 6 months or longer.
Medication and psychotherapy are effective for OCD.
You may benefit from having a Cognitive-Behavior therapy (CBT) for your anxiety disorder/OCD.
You can call your insurance company and get a list of providers in your area.
Other recommendations are:
Avoid excess use of alcohol and drugs.
Sleep in complete darkness and try to be out in bright light during the day.
Have pleasurable activities with friends and family.
Choose to listen to sounds that have positive effects on your mood.
Set limits on the amount of time you spend on the internet to avoid information overload.
Please let me know if you have more questions. Best regards,