Hi again Kate. We got everything moved this weekend and Monday. Glad that is done, but, of course, we are not even close to being unpacked. Ugh. Oh well. I had taken Friday, Monday & Tuesday off. Now I am back to work today. Right in the middle of this, we have kind of "merged" with LP's firm, which is kind of a mess. Today is super busy. And this afternoon I have to go kind of "learn the ropes" at the ch 13 trustee's office, since I will be working for her a little. I didn think this all through. Plus, today is my first day of the new long commute from our new house.
These are minor just busy things, but I am feeling overwhelmed. I feel like I already was stressed and now I feel like I have more demands on me - from LP and the trustee now. I question the soundness of those decisions - as well as the decision to move 45 minutes (at least - we shall see ) away from the office and church, when I was only 6 minutes away before.
Plus, I am getting a cold. Pat has had it for a week , but I usually don't get this kind of thing. My immunity must be down.
I have had bad dreams each night we have been in the new house.
I have an appointment with dr m tomorrow morning. She is still makai any me come every month. That's okay for now, even though I don't know why she hasn't changed it to the once-every-3-months like she said we would do. I would actually like to talk to her, but I don't know about what. I just feel unbalanced and I wonder if she can help. But she is not my therapist. I know I can bring up anything I want - but I don't even know what to say and I'm fraud she will just stare at me. I also have an appointment with rose tomorrow. I was encouraged that I I ally had some real results with the EMDR last week (although I have to say - its like I couldn't get things out o my mind for several days after), so I want to concentrate on doing that. I didn't have an appointment with Linda this week because I really couldn't fit it in. Maybe I will just call her? As I said, nothing is really wrong. I just feel so stressed and so pulled. And the nightmares
aren't helping. Any suggestions? Taking more time off work won't help. It is intensifying as I wonder what else is building up.
I'm sorry. I'm just venting. I just feel so stressed out right now, And I just wanted to talk to you.