Hello, I'd like to help you with your question.It sounds like you might be depressed. The symptoms you describe indicate a feeling of social isolation. While this can mean you are experiencing social anxiety, it is more likely to be depression.Depression is characterized by feelings of hopelessness and worthlessness, lack of energy or motivation, thoughts of death and/or suicide and trouble concentrating. It is common to feel there is no hope and no way out.
You may want to see your doctor just to be sure what you are experiencing is not the result of any physical issue. However, if you are medically cleared, then you are most likely dealing with a psychological issue.If you have not tried therapy, you might want to at this point to at least clarify what you do have with an evaluation. And therapy is often one of the best ways to feel better. Medications are helpful to deal with the symptoms of depression but they do not get rid of them permanently. Therapy can do that for you. To have a better chance at finding a good therapist, ask your doctor for a referral. Or you can search on line at http://therapists.psychologytoday.com/rms/.You may also want to try medications. They are helpful to ease the symptoms but they do vary in their effectiveness so you may need to try a few different ones to see what works for you. Each person has their own body chemistry and what works for one may not work for another. Also, once you take medication for a while, your body becomes accustomed to it and you either need an increase in dosage or you need to try a new medication. But they can help you deal with the symptoms until therapy helps you.Motivation is a very difficult symptom of depression. It often keeps people from helping themselves and reaching out to others. But support and self help are vital in helping you overcome depression. Consider support groups, either on line or in person. People who are experiencing the same symptoms as you are can offer invaluable support, ideas and companionship to help you feel better. Also, working on your depression at home can supplement your therapy or other treatment. Here are resources to help you get started:http://psychcentral.com/resources/Depression/Support_Groups/ http://depression.supportgroups.com/ http://www.nami.org/ http://helpguide.org/mental/depression_signs_types_diagnosis_treatment.htm Once you are able to reach out, you will start to feel better. Let others support you and offer help. You do not have to do this alone.I hope this has helped you,Kate