Can I still go to the appointment on Tuesday . I would really like to . Is there anything particular I should or shouln't say ?
Sure that would be fine. As long as you are aware of your feelings and know that this is something to be worked through then it is ok to see her.
You can ask her about sending the final email in the future when you feel ready to show her your progress if you want. But unless you have something specific you need to say to her, then do your best to treat it like a doctor/patient appointment. And try to give yourself a break if you feel bad about the appointment. You are doing the best you can.
Thankyou I would like to say to her I hope you don't mind me coming to see you again its just that I feel I have let you down because the first time you saw me in March I looked aweful and six months later I looked just as bad. I really wanted you to see me at my best and that I will miss you very much.
I don't want her to feel I am wasting her time, but I feel if I do see her I will feel a lot better for myself. Also I will be seeing her collague in a couple of weeks.
That is ok to say, as long as you know that you are putting a lot of your feelings into it and that she may not respond back with the same kinds of feelings. Not that she doesn't care, she does. But her emotional attachment with you may be more towards a patient/doctor relationship.
But seeing her for the last few times you can is perfectly fine.
I am scared that she may say I can't write to her anymore but at the same time I don't want not to see her and let her know that I feel I have let her down. I do know and fully understand that they can't get to close to their patients and I don't want her to feel I do nor do I want her to feel unfortable, . I am just a very kind person and the fact that she is leaving has affected me more than I have shown to her and unfortately that bug came at the wrong time. I am also scared of what she might think when she sees me again so soon especially if I don't have a pysical issue .
All you can do is ask if it is ok to contact her one more time after this. If she says no, it most likely has more to do with her situation than with you. And you may be putting more into her thoughts than is really there. It is doubtful she puts much into how you look but is mostly concerned with if you are feeling better.
Sorry to bother you . I hope you don't mind.Its just that at the moment I feel as if I have done something really stupid and I can't help but cry all the time when I am alone.I went to see my Gp on Tuesday as planned . I felt really happy to see her but when she weighed me I felt like a total failure because my weight had dropped. She had a bit of a cold so I didn't really want to say or stay to long or to waste her time. . She did seem happy to see me however which was nice. The next day I left a bunch of flowers and wrote a small note saying I hope you feel better , I apolgise, I have't gained any weight whilst in your care and I feel as if I have let you down. I also wrote I am not just losing a great doctor but a big sister I wish I had. I am so worried now of what she may think of me .I can't stop crying because what I wrote is true and I will miss her. I was only doing a nice thing . Will I ever beable to get over feeling like this ?
Yeah thats fine it works for me .