were still at my mils. i havent gone to see the house. so i dont know if the tree hit the house. we called neighbors who ended up staying at their familys houses due to the fact it was 47 degrees inside the house. i said yeah ours was 51 when i left. granted im a cold bitch cuz if its just us at home i keep the thermostat at 62. and when it was just me id literally wudnt have the heat on.
id put it on 30 min before rob got there. he didnt know id be home all day w/o it to save money as ive always done the finances.
anyway as my dad would say i only work for con ed i dont f**king own it. put on a sweater. im sure uve heard the same growing up. with less cursing of course.
the tree is not just a trunk half on one side of the tree is missing. the trunk is all there but the side of the tree thats there is closer to the house. and now i feel its off kilter. we got snow now and frankly im worried it will snap from snow and stinking leaves on it. yest i left the house in ahail storm . just wondering like my god. is the house going to make it thru this? its stood for 60 yrs and were gonna be the family that ends up with it demolished?
people had their garages (all extensions b/c the original houses didnt have them..) fall onto the houses. like completely topple to the side
trees (which are big due to the age of the neighborhood) we saw house after house with a tree on the house. some with a tree leaning no damage. to holes in houses. the storm didnt seem to be as high wind here but it cudve been at my house as were 20 miles away.
rob said he didnt want me to go home or go to the house by myself since its wet and slushy and i could fall. he said hell go tonight to check on the house. ive been trying to distract myself and not think about it. although when he leaves to go itll be on baited breath til i hear back im sure. i told him to take the all wheel drive to go.
anyway dr a asked rose out 6 times prior to accepting and now they are an item. i dont know for how long but def a couple of months.
i think hes putting on the whole fake nice guy thing. and then its like he cant keep it up or whatever and itll come out. it may be in 4 months or 4 years but its there. even a guy smitten with u shows his true colors. cuz theyre not smitten forever.
shes totally one of those naive chicks. like all sweetness and light and then there me... and jen.. and others who are like yeah... the polish is off us. were scrubbed bare. sleep deprived and exhausted, tired of everyones shit.
i said the other day that this er is like an abusive boyfriend. we just keep coming back.
well thats what we keep you around for steve, i jus dont know. i like being a nurse. i dont know if the stress is worth it. i think alot of us are stuck as what are we going to do other than exotic dancers that makes the same.. and most of us dont have the figure for it anymore. thats for sure.
btw dr a has another job lined up at another hosp apparently as per terri so he wont be here forever she says... i almost said well thats nice he got dr b to stay and now hes ditching him. and i actually said that. that dr a would ditch him in a minute if it was to advance or whatever. i feel badly about that. fro dr b. not for me. itd be nice to come back to a different dr. hopefully not an asshole but.. well we ll see
i am excited that this week coming up is my last week. i had the thought of going in sun and mon of thanksgiving week to get a couple days pay. it wudn t hurt and it would extend my leave. but i have ahard time putting on my socks and shoes now. and i feel a little like sigh. its hard to take a deep breath.
i feel like i will go to the end with this one and well steve its like god cant it save me a week and come a week early? its not alot. but its 7 less days of this crap. ill never forget all this the weather and stuff went thru ... i can say i was 9 months preg and had a 2 yr old and was without power and heat and hot water and no milk and etc...
and then ill sound like my parents.. and then there will be the sound of a single gunshot.
my mil has her day care biz going here and frankly i dont knwo how she does this day after day. she has 2 sets of twin. one 18 months, one 2 and soemthing. kate , a 1 1/2 yr old (who screams non stop.) thats the am. and in the afternoon picks up 4 boys all schoolaged like 5- 12 and 2 7 yr old girls.
its so busy and crowded in this little apt. i cant believe it. the pack and play i finally saw it.. its beat to hell. dirty like you cant believe. ill buy anew one and the high chair we bought them has held up better than that pack and play. she uses the hi chair for all of them too. its all day rotating them in and out who gets fed and then next!! wiped off and next kid in. she has the twin 18 month old boys in separate pack and play cuz they fight (yeah theyre red heads...) and well im helping her an i m like holy crap. really i feel like thnak god for birth control. or bulls to kick guys in the groin. whatever.
we had 3 kids poop at the same time and i was like a public toilet doesnt smell this bad. i told my mil to check my fil diaper too.
she just laughed. i wasnt kidding.
meanwhile kates on mommy duty bringing pacifiers and removing shoes and socks and telling the boys its ok, its ok no cry...
as far as my ob. im not going for the glucose test. ill go for the hi risk ob. and his reg appt. just to keep dr cranky happy.
and btw calling me cranky isnt winning him any popularity contests. im preg with big babies and go full term and work til the end. and when u cant breathe and feel like an animal and are in pain and cant sleep. and im holding on by athread. well hed be cranky too.
and again im not having 10 kids to have him deliver one. he can see me at my paps from now on jerk.
the house ins has a 1k deductible. and if the house is liveable wont cover us. its only damaged and unliveable theyll cover us to live in a rental or whatever. im sure theyre not going to cover that lipa is abunch of jerks and cant get the power back up and running
the governor said hes going to pull their license or soemthing and whatnot. i dont know much of anything as i cant stand listening to the radio and the speeches and grandstanding when im sitting freezing without food.
just dont have the tolerance.
btw. where the hell has tmm been? no texts in months. i mean does this mean he doesnt wnat me anymore? thats pissing me off really. i thought for sure hed text from the big storm...
he lives on higher ground than me so hes not flooded as im not..
and im kinda mad that dr b isnt too interested in me anymore. its almost like... ok have the baby and let me know when u lost 40lbs.
ill make sure i have my push up bra for that day.
oh and colleen my buddy who worked in the city had her baby 9 weeks early last week. right after the storm. hes in the nicu. hes breathing on his own luckily and was 5lbs. if that kid went full term im telling you itd be 12 lbs. its crazy. she said she had soem back pain for a few days and couldnt take it.
she went to the ob thinking she had a kidney infection and she gave him urine. he checked her cervix and she was 8cm dilated and he said youll have the baby within 2 hrs. she started pushing and she did 90 min later have her son. conner. luckily her boyfriend made it 10 min before. she said she felt guilty she didnt go to the dr sooner, but i told her i def wouldnt either and i prob have the baby in my house b/c i wudve never gone. not for back pain for sure. they dont stop ur labor if ur 6cm or more btw. when he did the exam her water broke on his hand (i said oh god ew. hope he had his raincoat on..)
i told her it was meant to be she and the child lived. she said it was the most panful thing in her life and i laughed and said mine was 2x the size. kiss my ass.
god steve im getting nervous about this whole delivery thing. i was worried and i keep trying to put it out of my head that soemhow ill be ok... but i dont know.
like ok it was juts a really really bad day when i had kate. the pain was unbareable. i mean not that ii regret it, but the thought of it is too much for me anymore.
and to be preg again... god i dont know.