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I believe that you may be suffering from Tourette's Syndrome
(or perhaps another similar disorder in the tic spectrum).
Tourettes is an inherited neuropsychiatric disorder which usually begins in childhood. It is characterized by several physical tics and at least one vocal tic. If there are no vocal tics as well then it would be called Chronic Motor or Vocal Tic Disorder
. These motor tics usually come and go and can be temporarily suppressed. Often they are preceded by an urge.
Here is a short video (with a badly recorded musical accompaniment) that illustrates some of the Tourrette and Tic movements in older children.
If this looks familiar then you will have an idea that this is corroborated. You can seek treatment if it causes you discomfort, embarrassment, or interferes with your life. Otherwise, understand that it can come and go, and may be assocated with other stresses
or other disorders, which you did
not seem to indicate.
You may be interested in looking at Tourette's treatment, if you think you have it, at this website:
If this is what you have, then do not worry about it getting worse or you deteriorating. It might even stop completely on its own. In any case, I wish you well.
Elliott Sewell, LPCC, NCC, CCMHC