1) I'm unattractive, socially awkward?, social anxiety?, low self esteem, I apparently don't know how to "close", I've been rejected NUMEROUS times "going for a kiss", I don't know when the "time to move in" is? I am TOO modest and HONEST to people. I give girls and even strangers too much information? I have big ears, sloped forehead. I'm short.
2) If this means how much I want to have sex? it's way beyond a 10. I've been wanting a girlfriend or have sex since I can remember. In highschool, I used to ask teachers to try to hook me up. I'm pretty desperate and I'm not shy to admit it.
3)Not sure what you are asking me. I would like to have sex but not just one time ever. I would like to experience sexual things (touching, handjobs, blowjobs, etc..) The furthest thing Iv'e done with a girl is hug a girl and kissed a girl on the lips. I tried tongue but I keep getting rejected and they back off and make feel like crap. I don't really want to do pay for anything but I seriously feel like if I don't find a girlfriend or a ONE NIGHT STAND type of girl then it's NEVER gonna happen. I'm 31 years old. I have no "game" and I'm obviously very unattractive. Physically as well as mentally probably to these girls.
4) No professional help...I've had friends (guys and girls) that have said Yes to prostitiution and No to the idea. They claim it would get me over the "hump" but it might steer me to just constantly "pay" for it more and if I don't eventually get it naturally.