Dear Dr. Keane, Use this post please as other one is no longer in chat mode. I am now online. Work's finished for the day. Hope to catch you. Just give it a moment though as internet connection, although good, may take a moment to connect to chat, but I am here though. Do you think that I'll have PMT forever, until menopause? I am sort of okay about taking the Fluoxitine but can't imagine having to take it forever, that doesn't sit very easily, that thought....Do you think I'll have anxious tendencies forever, since I quite possibly already have had them forever to varying degrees (a little scared of asking that question, but ask I must. I'm brave enough to see what the answer is. Wanted to ask for awhile off and on, but now feel I can)....My mum has Myelitis and it isn't going to improve because she's had it for too long for it to now do that and I can see deterioration and now so are other people. I'm sort of okay with it as can't do anything about it except to help her manage it. I am trying to live my life too. I try and not worry about her. If I don't think about it too much then I'm fine about it. I do wish sometimes that it was all diagnosed earlier, that makes me a bit annoyed, after all she saw a lot of different people, some good, some not so good. There's someone good now though, who isn't just dismissing her. It's just hard to diagnose and even harder to treat so it would seem with no cure. I am done with having hope of improvement or complete recovery, just more trying to accept the reality of it all. I try not to think about the future of her health because that really is painful. In some cases sometimes the condition can get to a point where it stays the same. Thought for awhile that would be the case with her as it looked like it, but recently there's been a bit of deterioration. I'm glad she still gets out places a bit. It was a bit of a shock when a few weeks ago occupational health gave her a wheelchair, she doesn't need it often, usually slow walking with crutches is all she needs, it's so that she can go places where the distance to see it all is too far, a little upsetting at the time all the same. I think that it was a bit of a shock initially (getting used to the idea) because we always reckoned she wouldn't need one, the worst thing is that it means a doctor who later wasn't terribly nice as he had a give up attitude and had to be changed was right...Sorry, I just really had to get that off my chest as it were. It's not that no one knows, it's hard to miss, it's just that I know when I tell you things you have a different perspective from others. People often ask me how she is, which is very nice, but the family party line mostly is she's fine, which is sort of true, she is doing fine. I just had this need to talk about it and to say how I've felt about it, even though come to terms with it as much as I can at the moment.....My relatives have arrived so thought I should write out as much as I can, although will try to be here to chat, I have it all set up on sms alert so I will hopefully be able to make it back to my computer, it may take a minute so I can get to it and get into chat. Sorry we have kept missing each other this week too and sorry for the length of the post. once I got writing it just all flowed. I do hope to catch up with you properly and chat to you properly, my relatives and I do have some plans in the upcoming days though, which is why I've written a bit out in full, even though I always feel chatting to you is always good. I wish I could have been here earlier but was at work with no computer access and I can't do anything about that I'm afraid. I'm glad that even though it's sometimes a bit tricky, that you are still willing to talk to me. I hope your week's been going well and I hope that even if it takes a little while, we catch up soon. Friday I am definitely home by 8pm. Possibly be here before but although I've relatives I have to work too. No one to cover as everyone wanted same time off and I clearly didn't get in first. I don't know what plans are tomorrow, Saturday I am out all day, I know that much, and Sunday out until 4pm. That much I do know and it's probably not helpful or useful.