Hi. Welcome. I am a Licensed Master Social Worker with more than 20 years experience working with individuals and families on a variety of issues.
I know how hard this space is for you and that you care for her.
I believe the best option now is to honor her wishes and step back and give her the space she is asking for.
Continuing to pursue her when she has asked you not to, does not help you in anyway and she may even contact authorities.
Sometimes when we give some space it can allow for someone to come back after having the time to process it all.
I will wait for you to come online so we can talk.
But if that doesn't happen and she does not want to have any contact then your focus needs to be on you and your healing around this loss.
i need to ask you more about waiting