THE little girl is still intubated and medicated and ina coma. thank god for small miracles. a coma is your bodys way to rest and well not deal with whats actually happening to you. good for the coma victim.
my mom was in a coma and she still doesnt seem to get the enormity of her illness. it nearly killed the 3 of us. my brother lost os much weight, my dad at ate junk food all the time (hes not really like that) and i didnt eat but gained weight. can you f**king imagine?
so the mom. what i mean is i get her desperation of not wanting to lose her child. i have felt desperate in diff situations and the terror you have. well its difficult to describe.
i dont identify with drinking. i never have.
i felt uncomfortable with dr a standing next to me typing on the stand up compuiter. i usually take a computer next to the end of the nsg station. and next to that is a stand up height computer. the 2 of them dr a and b like to use them to put orders in as the nurses ask for their orders.
i was trying to pretend i was ina cone of silence when he came out and was like whats with this pt. it said med eval and i explained i was juts typing in what i was told by ems and the charge nurse alerted us we will be getting tons of nsg home pts. omg so f**king annoying. all complete care confused and screaming crying.
i swear to god soemone was actually howling at the moon and the er was loud and busy it it kind of got quiet when the howling happened. i was the 1st one to say.. did soemone just howl at the moon? my side of nurses started laughing and soemone on the otherside said well these drunks are used to being outdoors so even when theyre inside... they act like theyr e outdoors...
anway he was like well she has crust in her eyes and maybe we shud work that up. i said its literally that they havent cleaned her. (i mean get af**king grip.. youre going to admit her for eye crust now? stop it.)
i was kind of surprised that dr a said that - im talking to liz.
i shudve had dr b come sit down and i shudve sat on his lap...
then again 7 months preg. maybe not.
as you know i dont find words shocking. its just a word.
everyone calm down. no one is startled by all the underage drinking or driving under the influence but pussy upsets them? i mean im not a nun but i feel thats alot more irresponsible in this life. sorry.
annmarie was on and shes funny as hell. we bantered all night and i was happy to be with her. she had a pt who was really demanding and just driving her crazy - her pt crashed and she was young 54, dying but didnt want to be dnr. stage 4 esophageal ca... i was looking for dr d when annmarie yelled for help and i ran and got the crash cart. i yelled for them to call a rapid repsonse. i said we need anesthesia, annmarie was bagging the pt and got a 2nd line when more people came in..
after we had her vented and everything i said to annmarie, ok what dyou give her to kill her? she said shit liz that was cold. i said next time you need more.
later we had a nurses aide saying how shes working 24 hrs straight between 2 jobs... i explained to her that that s illegal .. she sid oh im so tired blah blah i need a break i need to sleep. i went with annmarie to the med room to pick up meds and i said like youre not doing us any favors i mean the bicth got paid for 24hrs so whats she complaining about? annmarie said thats why i like you liz. you tell it straight up.
i mean if i decided to work that . well its my own fault.
anwyay at the begin of the shift this nurses aide kelly (the fish filet nurses aide and who supposedly slept with dr a...) parked in the clergy spot. i walked up to her car and was like wtf really. i mean im godless but even this is too much for me. im not f**king with a priest and his parking you know?
she says im sister kelly. i said listen sister kelly just cuz youre on your knees at night and scream oh god doesnt make you a religious person.
i mena im sure she says... dont...stop... but still.
she wa slaughing and laughing. i told her you better go make a big donation to the freaking church woman. confess soem shit.
i mean even i think the priest shudnt have to park far away. she told soem other people there and they were laughing at my screaming oh god all nite comment.
as far as dr as bday - i gave $5. weird.. vood doo kind of mind control you have over me. thats exactly the amt i gave but it was the asked donation.
i am so not getting him inot a club. bad news. no one wants a preg girl at the club and no one wants to see me in a mini skirt. he asked me if after the baby if i would go and do i have amini skirt. lol.
still i never had great legs. not a big min skirt girl in the 1st place.
i really thought at the beginning of the conversation he wanted to kn ow if there were any hot girls he could have me get to go with him.
he said soemtimes him and a cousin of his go and the cousin is good at getting a group of hot girls to go with them and they pay them back with drinks and covering costs. (i didnt say that was a jazzed up version of hooking... i am guilty of it as i had male friends who i think wanted alot more and theyd take me out and pay for whatever we did although i always tried to pay or say ill pay for both of us this time... esp this guy vinny. funny thing i didnt find him attractive. he was too short and his face.. not good. he wore glasses.. he had a great personality. - the kiss of death for a guy interested ina girl. well his persistence paid off. it was months of hanging out ina group of friends i supplied the girls and he supplied the guys and we always had 3 car full of people going and well vinny made up for his looks. whoa. )
anyaway i said so go find soem hot girls in the city and get them to get you in. and then sleep with one. dr b actually said nahh. theyre usually stupid.
i said so? youre having a intellectual conversation in bed? he laughed and said im getting too old for that liz. i almost fell off the chair. i think dr b has made progress.
look at that. i have molded the man.
well i wouldnt go that far.
next week hell be like i banged this girl.. oh well.
i was def shocked.
i confided to dr b im tire dof being preg and as much as i want the baby i dont want to deliver again. im getting a little more anxious about it and he said tell the hubby - but he mentioned that whole vessel of life thing again..
he said you could tie your tubes and i said im not ready or sure enough for that yet.
we didnt finish our conversation due to an interruption.
dr b. i dont know. i think hes teasing me too. i dont think hes serious really.
anyway kim on the other hand who will not even speak of dr b anymore.. has been lobbying hard for me not to be friends with jen anymore. esp since the playground incident. she said you shouldve told her what a f**king moron she is.
i said well im not normally with dominic so it was never an issue and the girls get along.. so shes like oh please. the kids a monster.