I do understand that
Yes they can be and I have experienced that. The last relationship just ended by me after many times of me stating we were not on the same page and breaking up on and off but taking him back because then he would "show up" for a little while
Well, I just discovered he was sleeping with other women at the same time (and I am guessing without protection) and lying to me (I caught him). I did not let him know I knew this but broke up with him letting him know that I did not see a future between us and that I needed to move forward in my life. I believe that he is aware that I discovered his infidelities-so why would he be mad at me?
And I tried not to abandon him, but how can you not when he is aware that my boundaries are such...I don't want someone who can't be with one woman only. I understand his position but how can I compromise who I am?
I am very mature and very self aware, I pride myself on that; however, as much as I feel for him and feel his pain and sadness because to a certain point I see myself in him (I have never married or had children because of my fears) I believe I deserve what I deserve, a man who respects me enough to stick by me.
And yes, maybe I need to explain "really" why I can't be with him (I texted him because he always manipulates me back to him) ... he hasn't called and it's been 3 weeks and I almost think that maybe I should let things be but I am afraid of running into him and having him be cold as ice.
Yes it would and I am afraid of that but why do I attract such people. Does that mean I am not over what I went through in my childhood? If so, how can I change that?
Well, since I don't have insurance it is difficult financially. I feel that I am getting closer by being more aware of my relationship choices.
Thank you, XXXXX XXXXX that and I will read it. However, I have discovered that I have always researched "other" people/relationships instead of what is going on with me internally. I always thought I was confident and self assured when it comes to the world and my career but never felt that way in relationships. I guess I have to admit that I am not and need to address why I don't feel worthy of a good relationship.
Thank you for your time, have a good evening.