Hi. Welcome. I am a Licensed Master Social Worker with more than 20 years experience working with individuals and families on a variety of issues.
I am sorry to hear of the pain you are in.
my first reaction is to say to you of course you will meet someone where the fit is right and it just hasn't happened yet.
But I am aware how you aren't able to see and feel that right now as you have pinned your hopes on this man as you have been communicating with him for quite some time.
The experience that you are having with men going for younger women is quite common and frustrating to deal with so we must open up the possibilities of looking for someone who is in a different stage of maturity and is looking for the woman that you are. I will wait for you to come online so we can chat. I am hoping you have managed to get some sleep after feeling so sad last night.
Tell me how you are today.
Hi - somewhat better - took a short road trip and that helped - but starting to think too much again.
yes when you get trapped in your mind that is when the anxiety creeps up.
tell me about the beautiful road trip...lets go back there
I drove about 2 hours up to a shrine I've been intending to go to - very beautiful, did a lot of quality praying and thinking plus a nice walk around the grounds. Left hopeful, but darn it I wish I knew what I could have done different. And then thinking why am I so hung up over someone who doesn't feel the same way about me as I do about him?
I think that sounds lovely. I dont think it has anything to do with what you could have done differently...this is not the man....who can date these younger women....doesnt sound like much depth. And from what you write above you sound with a lot depth
I'd like to think so - but in person I generally just assume because I'm overweight it's a lost cause - this one apparently lost interest with what I consider my strong suits - personality, wit, and empathy (and such).
and sadly many are stuck in the shallow and I am sorry you are getting the brunt of that. love yourself and grow from it.
I know I need to work on my self-esteem - just hard to find the small successes to build on sometimes when I'm so self critical.
you are not a loser at all. A woman looking for love.
Thank you - I just wish I knew where to start looking - this was a matter of happenstance (the one now with the 24 year old). Who - by the way - I've also talked to via internet gaming and she's very nice - but am still not feeling very charitable about her right now.
that is because you have a lovely heart. dont let this last experience harden that.
Take some time to be on your won and enjoy the things you like and through that all possibilities can happen.
Sorry - chat is locked up.
no worries. I am here. chat has problems sometimes
sometimes reply doesnt work but it will eventually. so sorry
any luck? if not I can switch to Q and A. it wont be live chat but I will respond right away.
ok I will switch now. I am still with you.
ok - sorry about that! Now I see where the q&a mode is.
I just wish things like personality and heart were in more demand. It's why I wonder what else is wrong with me if after all this time they don't seem to count.
Well - you have a point. He'd have to do quite a bit at this point I'd guess if I'm being strong. The only other hiccup this causes is I usually do on-line gaming with this group - and just really really can't stand to at the moment. But I have other good friends in the group who I miss and who miss me. So will have to figure something out.
And I knew what you meant and thought it was funny too - I think I can have "heat" too! :)