Hi. Welcome. I am a Licensed Master Social Worker with more than 20 years experience working with individuals and families on a variety of issues.
A step parent may absolutely develop feelings of love even if biology isn't there.
It does not make sense to me that he would remove himself from the family time and not make every effort to engage your kids and get to know them in his own way and forge relationships based on some shared interests.
Step parenting can be hard as well as he may struggle with what is his acceptable place and not fitting in.
Here is a wonderful book on the topic. http://www.amazon.com/Stepcoupling-Creating-Sustaining-Marriage-Blended/dp/0609807412/ref=sr_1_3?ie=UTF8&qid=1344473044&sr=8-3&keywords=step+parenting
do you want to get back together? Are the kids feeling more relieved now that you are separated?
So am I wrong to find it unacceptable that he now refuses to interact with them in any way? The kids are much happier apart. I just love him, but would feel very wrong towards the kids to get back together
No I dont think you are wrong at all. I agree with you 100%
I was just offering a possible perspective of what he may feel but you are correct that his treatment of your children is unacceptable.
And that is what is hard for you...you love him but in the end you are a Mom first and a good one as it sounds to me
Do you think that there is any way to get someone like him to understand WHY even though he doesn't like them, he can't behave that way and is it even worth it? I have to believe he would have changed or even tried if he really wanted to.
If he has the desire to understand it all and make some changes then yes things could get better with a lot of work. Individual counseling for him and couples counseling could help
and now that you are separated does he show a desire to change things?
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he actually said to me today "your kids won't live with you forever", but I said " they will always be coming home". He refuses counseling. And I found his behavior towards them abusive
it sounds it and i must say Mom to Mom you are doing right by your children.
you are in pain and it is very hard and although your children wont always be at home, they are now and you are being a great mother cub
so as much as it hurts i need to cut ties with him you think?
if it were me and someone treated my children in the way you describe i would move on and deal with all of the pain and anguish and know that in time healing will take place
AND I want them to always feel comfortable coming back to visit any time
I just feel guilty hurting him too. I can't win.
yes and you are protecting them from abuse....
sadly you are taking on his behavior as you are the one doing the hurting
he knew you came with kids
but i know it will hurt him to lose me...
if I were telling you this about my life what would you counsel me?
i know the rational side says, if so, he would change...
not enough that he is willing to do what it takes to make it work
i would tell you to leave.
so why can you say that so clearly to me?
because i would know that you deserve better
but i know he really does love me in his own way
and I know i am making no sense
I am sure he does...I dont question that but he doesnt treat your children well and wont do anything to change that!
you are making perfect sense.
I am with you.
if he loved me he would, wouldn't he?
so goes logical thinking
we would think....but he seems a bit self involved
but then logical thinking gets messed up by the fact that I KNOW he loves me but he WON'T change
so i am stuck
he loves you. he treats your children poorly. he wont do anything to make it better. he wont go to counseling.
you love him
you are willing
you will go to therapy
see it clearly now?
should be clearer i am sure
I would sit down with him let him know you love him and want to be with him but his treatment of your children is unacceptable and what would he be willing to do to make things better.
i know i did the right thing leaving. am i wrong in dating him? I won't get back together unless he majorly changed and I can't see that happening
if he wont budge then you know where he stands and you can make a decision accordingly
<sigh> I did and that is why i bought a house
then why date him? to prolong your agony?
but I am dating him which is weird and he talks like we will be back together
i date him because I love him, but you are right about the agony. Unfortuately we work together...same department....same projects.....
ahhhh so that space you will have to negotiate
yes, which I know keeps me there, along with the fact that i love being married and I can't imagine doing it THREE times
I know. i feel for you.
easy solution though...he gets to work no ifs ands or buts about it
i think i do know the answer, i just don't want to admit it, and I can't wait forever hoping for a change that may never occur
it is within you...I am just reflecting back what I hear.
If I didnt have children it might be harder for me to get it, but I do. and i am with you.
i know that patients/people like me must drive you nuts. I drive myself nuts!
not at all
I am here to support and listen and I hear your pain and dilemma
Yes there is a small selfish part of me that whispers - your kids WILL have moved out in 4 years and you will be ALL alone. But I don't want to risk my future relationship with them and their kids....but I think of all the alone time too
matters of the heart are never easy or simple
yes and that is a relaistic thing to think of but I dont believe you will be able to put them in harms way...
lets play out a scenario...
you take him back...he moves back in and for a while things are okay...most people return to their "normal" and you see him treat your children poorly. now you feel sick to your stomach that you put yourself and them through it again.
yes, i know I won't do that, but what if I just don't make any decision and "date" him for the next 4 years and then my kids move out. We "date" more, maybe even move in together again. Odds are my kids won't come back home for visits. But what if i delude myself that they will and/or don't make the decision?
let me slow you down. we dont have 4 years from now...we only have right now!
and right now I have moved out for them (and me) but I am dating him (movies, dinner) and maybe even going on vacation with him....
i don't know that is healthy either
I am so confused
and am i correct in thinking you are feeling guilty about it?
yes guilty for dating him, but not quite ready to stop. My kids think it is weird and I wonder where it will lead since....
well what he has managed to do then is split you from the kids in that he doesnt have to share you. if he can date you and go on vacation he is doing all the great stuff without having to deal with REAL LIFE relationships
but I think you need to play this out until you feel clear one way or the other
ok. I will keep working on it. Thank you so much for your time and insight.
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