Hi! I am sorry you are feeling so down right now... being on medication of any type can have side effects, and having the health conditions you describe can certainly have a huge impact on one's state of mind, mood, and physical health in general. Let me ask you this: What are you doing for yourself to take care of YOU? To comfort yourself, nurture yourself? If your own child was in your situation, what advice would you offer them?
Sometimes, just those questions alone can lead you to the answer... and good nutrition, rest, exercise, sunlight, hugs, and all the things in life that we can offer ourselves are the things we put on hold when we feel down. Yet, these things can lift us back up, and give us the strength and energy we need to put one foot in front of the other and keep moving forward on this journey called life!
It will be whatever you choose to see it as; this life you live. Try to take it one moment at a time, be kind to yourself, and know that sometimes, we are dealt crummy cards, but it is up to us to decide how to play them. Seeing yourself as a victim of circumstance and as weak and defeated will become a self-fulfilling prophecy. Seeing yourself and tired and needing to rest and take good care of yourself in order to get back in the race is taking action to heal, and to make the choice to live. This choice is up to you to make.
I hope that my answer gives you some food for thought... I will await your reply and we can converse until you feel satisfied with the entire answer. Please wait to rate my service until we are completely done with the conversation; I will check back periodically for your reply! Thank you for using the site!