What a rollercoaster ride my life has been.
I have done so well. I have been healing and things just don’t get to me anymore. Since then he has been over me and checking up on me. I don’t let the comments get to me anymore, the not calling and not coming home after work. Why? There just is no point. He of course as we spoke was working at his sisters house and now is done. I hate it. I loved my independence of coming home alone and having my own time….
BUT then….this weekend happened and I had a set back. I just need help moving forward again.
The setback was a quincenera his sister had. She had a huge party for her daughters 15th birthday. There was like 150 people who showed up and…one of those people was his sisters best friend. This girl is the one who has been cheating with him and was convinced he was going to leave me for her. It felt so awkward at first but then I let it go because I felt I had not done anything wrong. I felt they crossed lines and they should be the ones to feel stupid not me.
On Friday he came home late and didn’t take my call. The thing is he came home with makeup stains on his hat and then denied what they were. I felt disappointed and hurt for the first time in along time. I had been working so hard on his grandparents house to get it ready and he does this to me as a thank you! XXXXX was crushed that night which caused anxiety
the next day for me. I went ahead and got ready for party. I got there and it was great. A lot of people greeted me and treated me so great. I danced and had great time that night. The only thing was being in the same area with her. She gave him the dirtiest look ever. Earlier that week she had mentioned to his aunt that she had known his sister for 15 years and was excited to be going. I don’t feel betrayed she was invited but on Sunday there was a family get together and we were not invited because she was there. That hurt me a lot. Once again I have done nothing wrong.
I noticed on Saturday night he was texting a lot and yesterday too. I didn’t say a word because it would only cause a fight. He can ready I am down and has been all the sudden rude to me last couple of days. He was talking to me about one of his cousins and said he is a good looking guy. I said yes he is a good looking guy. WOW those little words caused sooooo much drama. He said hes single I will hook you up. I couldn’t believe him I never said anything like that and he went into this direction out of the blue.
At the party she just couldn’t stop staring at me. It was creepy. If I danced she would get up and try to out dance me and on and on. I never have been in this type of a situation with a man before.
How do I get back to where I was? I was doing so good didn’t care and was loving myself. In the blink of an eye I am on a setback and I need to bounce back. What is your thoughts and opinions on everything? Why doesn’t he just leave me to be with her? He didn’t even acknowledge her that night…..